Feeling Lonely & Alone....

Another routine sunday... got out of bed in the morn and cleaned up my house... watched dvd.... brought the clothes in during the afternoon and iron them... Did some pushups , crunches... oh man... arms are hurting maybe due to lack of constant excercises... I really must maintain my workout constantly... less than a month before reservist and IPPT. Slacked in my room and watched tv in the evening... i really have No Life!!! Ahhh !!! After my last relationship , i realized i dun really have much friends... Used to do everything with her like going out for movies , shopping , relaxing at the beach or even slack at home. Everything we did its together for the last 3yrs ... hmm... Now i'm feeling so 'alone' , dunno wat to do and no mood to do anything by myself. I think i must learn to adjust to life without her.... its tough although its already been 6mth since we broke up... Well life still goes on and i'm sure i can adjust, all i need is more time... unless i manage to find that someone special...

Just Some Thoughts....

Sometimes you just have to be honest with yourself ... when you do , you can learn things faster and know more things. For example in watever line or industry you are in , if you are just interested in the money u will not learn anything becoz there is no motivation besides the money ... when one is just interested in money are we no different from prostitutes?

We must be honest and truthful towards ourselves in alot of things so as to be able to 'see' the faults that we did and search for a solution to resolve them. Sometimes you know in ur heart wat actually went wrong but you just refuse to accept it and start to give urself excuses and reasons to cover it up. People can guide you and give you advice but ultmostly you will be the one to choose ur path and walk it. Remember always be Honest & Truthful to yourself then u are able to be 'Enlighten' and you will find that the route in ur life is easier to walk thru...

Feeling the Pressure & getting Worried...

Shocked and stunned.....thats how i felt when my brudder told me that he was asked to leave the company... and the best thing is not only him but another guy as well ... me & brudder always thought that as long as we continue doing wat we are supposed to do we are safe and the reason is cos we are cheap. Cheap as in not as highly paid as compared to the rest of the people .. but look at wat happened to my brudder.... :(

Wat is going on in the company... why are they cutting staff ? Feeling worried .... wat has happened to my brudder can happen to me also... sigh... keep praying hard everyday that i still have a job to bring in income or at least get a job on standby just in case the next person to go is me... :(

Over The Weekends....

Went out for dinner with brudder Mel on fri. He recommended me claypot rice which is located at beach road hawker centre. Trust me its yummy!!! World second best claypot rice! (becos best is yet to be found kekeke) Me and brudder Mel finished the whole pot of rice jus 2 of us! Its jus too delicious..the chicken is tender, the dried sausage is plentiful and the rice is crispy and jus right. Yummy !!!! After dinner we took a long walk to bugis junction cos i wanted to watch Spiderman 3 and the reason for having the long walk is becos we were too full therefore decided to do some walking. Finally reached bugis and we found out that Spiderman 3 is only on screen 1st May 07 Ahhhhh.... Wat a blunder i made hehehe... we walked around abit cos mel wanted to get his PS 3 cable.... after that we decided to walk to Raffles City and have a couple of drinks at New Asia Bar before heading home. ( Nthing interesting at New Asia Bar so nthing to write abt)

Did some running on Sat evening as well as some push ups and crunches. Feeling fitter already ... dunno its me or just my imagination haha... Sun morn did another 3km run but this time felt my legs aching... hmm... guess i need to train more... time is running out for me...

Ugly Singaporeans

I am a singaporean as well but i'm sorry to say that most singaporeans are behaving so shallow and rude in public... its so humiliating for me to be of the same citizenship as them... i'm so ashame and disgusted at their ugly behaviour.

I was in the train on my way to work and as usual the train was packed. Can you belive that an idiot came in the train , squeezed into the centre and tried to take out his newspapers and read! Such an idiot rite! I was standing beside him and his papers were brushing against my face but before i could tell him off the train screeched to a halt(becos it was switching tracks) and i saw a man falling backwards on a woman. He quickly apologized to her and you know wat happened?

The woman in her late 30s screamed and cursed at the man! Comon the man just lost his balance and he did apologize to you immediately rite? No need to to give regards to his parents and ancestors rite? i saw the whole thing and i know the man fell becos of the sudden halt not becos he wanted to molest you auntie if thats wat you are thinking in ur mind. Oh sorry, you dun even have a mind to begin with in the first place.

The next situation happened to me... few weeks ago i was drinking at a pub with some friends. Chit chat with the waitress and found out that she stayed near me blah blah blah etc... when we were leaving which is quite late already abt 2am, i offered to send her home cos its on the way. She gladly agreeded and thus we took a cab home together. Dun get me wrong ok ... i sent her to her place and i went back to my own place nthing happened. On and off me and my friends still go to the pub for drinks as normal but... one fine nite the waitress confronted me outside the pub as we were leaving saying why did people say that she slept with me? i was puzzled for a moment then i recalled the ' sending her home ' issue. Could it be becos of that... but before i could explain to her , she hurled vulgarities at me! Damm was i angry! But shes a lady so i kept my cool...my friends pulled me into the pub and one of them got her a cab and she left... Firstly i wan to say I DIDNT SLEEP WITH HER ....secondly if shes so brainless as to listen and believe those rumors then she is a bloody stupid pea brain shallow person , its so many mouths against me wat do you wan me to say? And for behaving like a mad woman in public shes a BITCH ! You dun even wan to bother to listen to wat i say then dun even confront me in the first place. Anyway regarding the rumor , as long as i know i didnt do or say anything why shld i bother? I will never go to that pub again cos of such shallow people.

Overall these are some of the things most singaporeans can do or wat they are like. Any comments or views on this topic anyone???

Wearing a Mask & Losing Self Dignity

Finally i did some workout after 2days of procrastination ... did push-ups & crunches in sets. Didnt run cos i went out with my customers for a short drink therefore decided not to kill myself running hehe. Recently i feel so fake... why do i have to keep wearing a mask? i even have to smile and laugh along with people whom i dun like and that sucks!!! I believe there are alot of people out there who are the same as me as well , wearing a mask. I understand sometimes is Ren Zai Jiang Hu , Shen Bu You Ji ..... Ren Yi Shi Feng Ping Lang Jing , Tui Yi Bu Hai Kuo Tian Kong. Well .....life still goes on. And in life sometimes you have to do certain things which you dun really like to do in order to hang on. Damm... i feel like a loser , why cant i be frank to certain people.... Really need to do some self searching ... losing my dignity :( Where is there honesty when there is no dignity?